| Brief Intro or Whatnot |
| I am Patrick, but i am also Jojo. I live on the outskirts of Salt Lake.
I have a car named Betty. There is nothing more relaxing than standing in the rain. I like pastries. I can swim a mile. |
| Things and Stuff |
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Ravens eat trash. You eat health food. Who's on the couch?
From a distance, we all look the same.
Damn the torpedoes, full speed ahead. Wisdom is timeless. So are fools. The past is beneath you, the future is in the stars. Privacy is freedom. Freedom isn't free, or cheap. | |
| Tuesday, September 23, 2003 |
| So i am an ass. And i treat Katy like crap. And i'm going to hell. and i sold out. And i bought in. And i'm inconsiderate. And I can't get people off the phone in under thirteen minutes. And i have no faith. And I have no mission. And i spend time with fags, ravers, scouts, drunks, sluts, and molly mormons. what more can i say? I'm a failure. I'm a fetus that failed to self destruct. I failed to stay in the womb, though i tried for hours. I failed at diing at an early age, i failed at diing at a late age. I fail to live up to your standards. I'm not what you want me to be. I tried be. I'm trying to be. I know i have flaws. Don't judge me on them alone. |
| posted at
12:49 a.m. by Dark Jojo |
| Saturday, September 20, 2003 |
| Which is better? An angry girlfriend or revisiting old nightmares? Being able to put extra cash in the bank, but missing a friends homecoming, or having to drain an account, and spending the evening in a place you hate and swore never to return to? The day that i chose not to do the walk i swore to myself that i wouldn't return, ever. since that time, i had to return to get signatures for my eagle application, twice for church, once for a dance, and once for an Amnesty International film festival, watching a bad antiamerican flick and a movie against globalization. I shouldn't have been back once, not once. I don't want to go back again. I don't want to. Not for love, not for money. Every chance i think I'm free, i get halled back there, kicking and screaming. I just want to be. I don't mind hearing about JD. I mind being at JD. |
| posted at
05:26 p.m. by Dark Jojo |
| Saturday, September 13, 2003 |
| "never underestimate the predictability of stupidity" -Bullet Tooth Tony, Snatch So i have been sick with another sinus infection! yeah for me. And twice felt better, and twice i went out before i was well. What a smart boy am i. the first i did because of a perceived duty to help out my fellow man. the second was a perceived need that was caused because i am a man. Which brings me to my first point. Woman are evil. my second point is i am an ass. Finally, corporations are not people. They don't deserve rights. Don't treat them like they have feelings. They can't bite you. I hate msn. It's quality, true, but its really a product that you don't need, it's like a whole in the head. sure, email and and a browser and a messenger all in one are nice, but if it's broke, then you don't have anything at all, do you? and at a cost twice to three times other dialups, is it really worth the time it takes to install. Of course, its great if you have broadband, but i don't and most of the people who use it don't either, so why bother with it? Why, because people are individually intellegent, but as a whole, we're fearful and stupid. and in a job where talk to thirty people in a night, you learn just how stupid we are. I don't need the news anymore to find out how fucked we are as a species, no, i only have to talk to the woman who's life is revolved around the internet(not her children, who i hear screaming, and who hasn't been able to connect to the internet for the past six months -but only thought to call tonight-, and whose only problem was the phone line wasn't plugged in (that's right folks, we have not yet reached the wireless age of quantum computing, but give it another six months, and let someone else bother with the math, and it just might work for yah). oh, yeah, i misread the note that brandy left me. She called Kerry a schmuck, and me a silly man. However, i am a schmuck, but it's more because it try to be everywhere, and just end up sitting in a chair, ranting on the internet. |
| posted at
11:46 p.m. by Dark Jojo |
| Monday, September 8, 2003 |
| Brandi called me a schmuck. Well i am a schmuck, but more because i haven't put my email on this page than for any personality quirks. my email, for yuo that care, and don't know it yet, is patrick_200@yahoo.com. If you have msn (or windows) messenger, you can reach me at work at tp_slc_pschoen@msn.com. i have many complaints to tell you all about, but my break is over. |
| posted at
06:26 p.m. by Dark Jojo |
| Friday, September 5, 2003 |
| So i'm alive, and work is killing me. It's as frustrating as it was having to answer why i don't have a job yet. I'm talking on the phone to people who don't want to talk to me, which i can handle, working times when i should be sleeping, reading, eating, watching tv, or seeing friends, answering questions i my self don't understand the questions to, all the while getting paid $9 till my first sixty days is up. God, now that i have money, i don't seem to have any. my first pay check dried up immediately, fifty for a weeks rent( i still owe for another week) and fifty for cd's and the rest went to the bank, which i have drained over the last week to pay for gas and food (my rent covers dinner with the fam, but i work during the previously mentioned meal), and even though my next paycheck will be twice as big, it's already been promised for rent and savings, leaving me to look forward to eating cheap rice by the boxful for another two weeks, at least. I was watching the democratic debate this evening (after watching nightline) and i was drawn to two candidates. Dean and the former senator from Illinios. They both spoke of standardized medicine, and of equality between men and women, and between black, white, and tan. But nobody said a fucking thing about conservation. They all talked about reducing the reliance on foreign oil, but not a one said anything about reducing wasted energy or using higher efficiency eletronic devices. you want jobs, start requiring business to use efficient devices, and they'd buy it right quick. Dean especially pleased me by saying what i've thought for a long while, that we are all american and we should be categorized by creed, origin of our ancestors, or who turns us on. If you were born in america, your an american. So what if you can't get a tan because your black, or irish, it don't matter. It don't matta to Jesus. Of course, if your parents (or you) came from another place, it is alright, in my book, to call yourself a nigerian american or a dutch american or even (gasp) a french american. Also, i like dean because i hate Kerry (he's a loud, self righteous, ass (listen to his speeches)), he has the other candidates on the run (they all tried to spin what he said or verbally attack him), and he's done what he's said he would, and what he says he'll do again. Oh, yeah, and Brandi likes him (she wrote my father an email informing him of her views(of course i wasn't cool enough to get a letter(being only a brother in law:P)). oh well. Oh, more big news, i have decided to place my trust on humanities forward evolution, and become a humanist. I'm tired of listening to people telling me what i should be, while i have no fucking clue what i am myself. I'm sick of the Mormons telling that christ is in my life, and i'm tired of my father rationalizing believing in Christianity by pushing the fact that many of my personal views parellel those of the Church. So what if some of what your church says is wise? Wisdom is timeless. Wisdom is Universal. Other churchs have made wise sayings too. oh well, off to bed... |
| posted at
12:28 a.m. by Dark Jojo |
| Tuesday, September 2, 2003 |
| I'm on break right now, but i'm too lazy to walk down stair to go outside to sit in the fresh air for ten minutes. This job is really hard. It seems every day that i'm here i find out just how little i know, and through it all, i get to talk to clients who seem to hate msn and thus me. but i survived the first day |
| posted at
11:39 p.m. by Dark Jojo |
| Tuesday, August 26, 2003 |
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| posted at
12:25 p.m. by Dark Jojo |
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